Hello

Good God, I am tired today, dating is exhausting! 10 things I am grateful for today!
-my internet connection and computer
- the knowledge that when you truly turn your back on the past it cannot hurt you, you have to turn your back on the dark though and let all the bad guys of the hook, no half measures! I guess we forgive but don't forget, that experience is our most precious possession.
-the babe growing up; getting 100% on a geography quiz after we spent sometime going through her book, asking about a bra ( she's not quite there yet, she has graduated from boobicles i.e. bee stings to boobettes e.g. mini marsmallows, I want her to thinking getting boobs is fun and cool not the affliction I was raised to believe it was hence the names), she's going to Barcelona with school next week with a polka dot bikini, a home pedicure and a really good spanish accent!
- my new man friend has had a fascinating life, I just love to listen to him talk about it, I feel like I should be writing it down! he was a tough guy, no doubt, in a tough world. Reform school from 12, 1 of 13 kids to a single parent, lots of prison and from that background he quit drugs and alcohol, raised 2 kids alone, supports and looks after his grandson, does about 10 legit jobs simultaneously and trained as a drugs counsellor getting a degree and a bunch of prizes and volunteers for a bunch of stuff AND when you tell him how fab that is he just goes I just get up in the morning and try my best!
-my mum and dad, things weren't aren't and never will be perfect BUT the bottom line is I wouldn't be here without them and I am very glad I'm here! Thanks Deb and Jim!
-roasted, salted cashews
-my lovely pink and green Indian scarf that is allowing me to wear Summer stuff now and still keep warm
-this beautiful world
- babies I am craving a baby my eyes follow them down the street, my heart flutters when I hear them gurgle and aches when one cries. I don't know what this means for my life, I just gotta own up to the feeling.
-the lady who once payed mine and the babes bus fare when I was taking her to a ballet recital out of town and I had no money and the bus passes that I had bought did not extend to that area (I hadn't realised), I started crying on the bus when the driver asked for more money that I didn't have and this lady wordlessly got up and payed, I was so moved I couldn't get it together to thank her until I got off and then i was perfunctory because I was so teary. That night the babe was a mouse in cinderella and won a trophy and was so good and elegant I cried (again) and we got a lift home and I felt this universe does provide, it really, really, really does if we take a risk. I want to thank that lady now she helped out in such a classy way as though it was the most natural thing in the world. I can't wait to get the chance o passthat good deed along.
I hope everyone is well
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