straight up grateful!
hello lovely ladies! time is ticking, can you hear her? i've missed you like a hot dog with no bun! let's jump in together, i promise that you'll like it!
1. this is a picture of "radical" - i can do this:
BUT: anyone who knows me, knows that i can also do:
AND i always aim for this:
2. how did i become the assistant director on this class piece! i can't even begin to describe how fucking hardcore and challenging it's been - i was on the floor last week. i got physically exhausted and ended up getting run down - i was ready to quit and i'm still thinking out my options. i was publicly fronted on by one of the instructors over a lousy 90 minute break that i had planned out. i've managed offices with over 100 people in them, as the AD i manage the daily schedule, and i've done my best with no training - somehow i've done it. this is all temporary.
the positive?: i've taught myself how to fill out call sheets and breakdown pages based on some old assed "don johnson/nash bridges" call sheet bullshit! AND a few kick ass tutorials! and you can too!
3. with pink eye i proudly filled out two applications for scholarships that are in the $1,000-5,000, range, more to come!
the positive?: got it done! and with one eye was able to bump out a fierce essay about how i would spend the money!
4. antibiotics, just take them when you need them, i swear they really work!
5. tonight - homework, i'm headed to the lab, i've been so busy that i had to take mars into work with me once and next week, we'll do the same - i missed our first shoot, i was out sick, and the remaining 3 are huge and coming up next week, i'm ready!
the positive: getting it together, the doctor was funny, he commented that most folks wouldn't have waited so long to get help - and he's right. lesson learned. everyone was cool about me not coming to the set, and prior to me making phone calls at 7 am, i was planning on winging it or lying! there was so way that i could have, my eyes were shot!
6. i'm signing mars and i up for dental insurance, she needs a good cleaning and to rock out the ortho this year - wish me luck!
the positive: we need it, and i'm making sure that we get it!
7. men, and lot's of them are approaching, i like being single, i choose to embrace it in spite of it's challenges - and i continue to wade through, until the right man finds me!
the positive?: this is how it goes! i'm on my path and i made the choice to create this leg of the journey alone, this will change.
8. i've almost completed my documentary script and i was nervous as all hell when i interviewed the executive director of youth care on a whim two weeks ago, i have another interview lined up with the seattle councilman tim burgess and terry kimball at city hall in two weeks. my piece on teenage prostitution is coming together and i was also put in contact with debra boyer the cultural anthropologist who's groundbreaking work jump started the two year pilot project that will help teenage girls get off the streets. i reached out to an ex-prostitute named eileen corocan who later created her own non-profit RISE to help women and girls get off the track and i'll call her this weekend, she's excited to get on board for this film. who did this?!! how did all of this happen?
the positive: don't give up, you're on the right track! i was able to move past my fears and reach out and manifest everyone i needed to help me create a high quality 10 min documentary.
9. the class project has thrown everyone for a loop, but i'm holding my ground, i want to create my documentary to be filmed next quarter - it means the world to me - i want to put together a quality piece that could be used to help educate the public and bring awareness/shed light on the problem - i want to help them raise the remaining $300,000 needed to fund the second half of the project - i can do this for them.
the positive?: run with it!
10. i'm holding on, but this is no joke, the work load has been intense. my mom is coming back up here in early april, after spring break and before my third and final quarter of film school kicks off - year one will be in completion.
the positive?: sometimes, letting go and shutting eyes works!
11. i am many things, mostly, i am you.
love and enjoy your thursday night!
DC/CX
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I hear you bout letting go and closing eyes. This working/schooling/mothering thing is not for the faint of heart. I cannot wait until the semester is over. I have the summer off I cannot wait! Well, I still have to go to work, but no school for me! Great to hear about mom visit, does she help with your DD? Sorry to hear bout pink eye- antibiotics to the rescue! I too have just applied to several scholarships- just heard back about one of them that I got! Woo hoo! It will be worth all the hard work applying, I can attest! Sending lots of love and support, keep up the good hard work- the pay off is coming! xxoooo
I was so thrilled to see your post, I needed a DC injection! Killer as always! I am praying for you and crossing all my fingers and toes on the scholarships. If 1/1000th of the energy and enthusiasm that pours out of your blog made it onto your application you will walk it. Your documentary sounds stellar, that is an issue close to my heart and close to my life, when ambition and altruism mix its a great cocktail!
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i really miss chatting with you everyday! i always resd your posts, i personally can't wait to hear about your new house, i know it's coming soon!
what an amazing compliment! i'm digging deep girl! someone has to on this one! i'm telling you girl, i'm getting nervous! *i've been nervous!*, but this story has somehow magnetized me to it, it's completely out of my control, i just need to shape it correctly, accurately, professionally and mostly: to the best of my ability!
i've lucked out meeting the right people and sticking with the documentary class that so many people have bailed on. our main instructor will only pick 10 or so that the class will produce, and i want mine to be one of them!
i had planned on working into the wee hours of the night, but sleep, a good movie, late night food/dinner and laundry have somehow called me away!
i'm almost done with the script - i'll finish it this weekend! i'll call eileen this weekend, i'm excited to talk to her!
i want to expose the problem for what it is - child sexual abuse, i want to change and erase the perception or stereo type of it being consensual. and get them the funds they need, i can do it.
i want this to be my most profound piece to date.
wish me luck!
forever!
your friend!
CX
p.s. thank you for encouraging me to move forward on the scholarships, i have a handful more to rock this month!
and the essay's and bio's are the funnest part, you know how much i love to write!
i hear what you're saying about your bladder infection - sometimes we overlook the simple/straight forward/"regular" things!
i'm learning that the school/work/film business requires me to pay more or "extra" attention to my insides/guts!
thank you for the nice compliment!
take care - DcX
Itchy....glad you're antibiotics are doing the job (wince). Isn't it awful how we try to put off these things??? I was so busy designing a website once I put off taking care of a bladder infection- I seriously was like- "Nope I just don't have time for this" popped a uristat and chugged a bunch of water- I got the job done by the deadline but yep, got a kidney infection- really smart. My Dr. was furious with me.
But Go Dragon! You're rocking it! 
Great job, DC! You are making it happen and staying positive.
i appreciate your support!
take care - CX
I've had it before and it is brutal. I totally understand putting off going to the doc, because at first it just seems like an itchy eye. I am going through some intense times with school also so I definitely feel you on that!! hold tight, we will both make it through. I'm at mid-term time at my school, so halfway through have mercy.
the documentary idea is so awesome! I think you will raise the money for it, I know it will happen!
i've been thinking about you for days now!
yes! we'll both make it through, it dawned on me that i only have a few weeks to go, and 2nd quarter is done! are you at a similar spot?
hang tough beautiful fierce lady - how is the subbing going?
a tribute song that will make you smile and laugh: "dance floor" by roger and zapp!
how are the kids? brian? the bookstore?
final cut has been my biggest challenge, the AD gig is leveling out, we shoot 3 days next week, tuesday and thursday - are "regular" days. but next saturday, that's a whole other deal, an 18 hour shoot, it's going to be push, but we can do it!
thank you for the pink eye support, my eyes need some rest! allergies and pink eye don't play games - but this is temporary. i am healing and moving in the right direction.
i love you dearly!
forever your friend in seattle - CX
i'm tired just reading all of that.
i've gotten pink eye chronically -- or recurrently, whatever the correct term is -- since childhood, it can be painful if you let it go. and it always snowballs to a painful mess on a friday night, so you have to suffer through the weekend before calling a doc, to avoid getting expensive emergency service for something as silly as pink eye.
so i feel ya.
will your doc be posted online anywhere when this is all over, by chance??
girl, i know it! i've been putting the pedal to the metal for weeks now, months i suppose! my health care is called qliance, and they're planning on expanding into nationwide clinics in the next few years!
these guys are not the run of the mile "insurance", in a sense they're even better - i called the after hours doc and she was able to prescribe me something that night, but overall, the round trip cab fare, meds and keeping mars up until one in the morning didn't seem worth it!
*$200, grand total!*. to clarify, not that it wasn't worth it, i was honestly too tired and frustrated to even do it!
i can relate to your chronic pink eye business, it seems that we come down with it, at least once a year - around december usually. i'll come up with a mantra to avoid it next time!
this allergy season has been ferocious for me, i'm hoping that my body will adapt, last year i had it for about 2 weeks, and i'm going on the same right about now! working our has helped me tremendously, inspite of my schedule i'm still making time for the gym!
the doc!
i need to complete the script, proposal and pitch it - then get it into production in my 3rd and final first year quarter of film school. we're gearing up to shoot this sometime in the first three weeks of april! soon!
i need to find a way to put my work on line, if even for a short time, just for viewing, i'll look into this when i'm on break at the end of this month.
the best part? this is really an informational or educational doc, these are a little different from a standard/run of the mill doc. mostly because they have a shorter "shelf span" like maybe a year or two, mine will be the exception!
i mainly want to put this together so the organizations can use it as a demo piece at a lecture, and have it up on their websites for people to view, in terms of advocacy/education and reasons why people need to donate money for the cause.
i personally consider it a "gift" to the girls who need help and to the champions for the cause who have literally dedicated their lives to protecting abandoned children on the streets.
i want this piece made!
forever your friend - CDX
Your doc sounds amazing! Way to motor through obstacles and put it all together, dc.
I got pinkeye seven times in three months last year. It makes my head explode. Ever since I am all OCD about the hand sanitizer. We do what we can.
XO
i appreciate the support - big thanks girl!
haven't seen you in awhile - how is your day going so far? how is your family?
the pink eye saga - it's a hard core virus/bacteria! luckily, mine has finally cleared up, and oddly enough the only thing that has helped me kicked the sinus infection but the freakin' netty pot!
i've had one under my sink for over a year now and never really figure out how to use it until now! my mom suggested it a few days ago and i took her wise advise - and it worked! i peeked at at an online tutorial, now i'm hooked!
it took my eyes only two days of netty use to finally clear up! after 2 1/2 weeks of bs!
most importantly, i can wear eye liner again!
love and enjoy your weekend, it's right around the corner!
your friend - cX
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i just posted in your awesome nursing school thread, this is exciting!
yes, my mom was a major help when she came to visit, i wined and dined her, i wanted to make it fun for her - she was a wonderful house guest and to think that it took me 12 years to pick up the phone and see her again is insane! this will never happen again!
i'm happy to have her come up again, we miss her and we'll have even more fun when she comes - there's a lot more of seattle that she has yet to explore!
the working, single parenthood and school combo has been intense this quarter! i'm glad that you're off school for the summer, i am too - although like you, i will work full time, and i actually look forward to it - more money, better benefits, even if it's temporary. i'll do a kick ass internship at the northwest film forum, i'm excited to learn more in terms of independent producing and directing.
i'm so happy that you got that big scholarship! this makes me feel good inside! i'm applying to all of them, as many as i possibly can, up until april - i have one or two more this month to knock out by the 31st. i'll dig deep, all that money that i receive will belp me next year.
wish me luck girl!
love - your friend - DC/CX