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hello, hello! I woke up today feeling GOOOOD for the first time in a month and a half, I kindof didn't realise that I hadn't been feeling good until I felt good again. I wasn't insanely miserable, just a little out of whack BUT I am really proud of myself cause I didn't do anything insane, there is not a ton of mess to clear up,bills got payed,obligations fulfilled even at my worst I am doing pretty good! Some things that I am joyously grateful for today;
- Courage, I needed it this week. After my plagiarism debacle I had to go back to the department of surgery and cancer, into the lions den, for a lecture. The lecture was the woman who had flagged up the plagiarism and who I have other negative history with! I heard her say my name to another member of staff; she knows my name for all the wrong reasons, this is unusual for me! I had also been told that she had tried to give me an insanely low mark that the other markers had not agreed with as the work I had done was evident. I went in with my head held high. The lecture was great and had some stuff that was useful, I answered a question. Regardless of what she thinks I forgive myself.
-RAD51 is rad! The new gene I am studying has captured my imagination; did you know every cell in your body has 3m of DNA in it if it was all stretched out! AS you can imagine sometimes that stuff breaks and RAD51 steps in to repair it. Each chromosome has a pair and Rad repairs stuff by unwrapping your other chromosome and making a little pattern out of it and scooting that pattern over to the broken one to use as template for repair! Did you realise you were so amazing?
-My kid, I am spending the day with her today, she is practising hard for a ballet exam and we are finishing a wall hanging for school. She is going through a little phase of being her own worst enemy at the moment, getting in her own way on stuff. I am trying to teach her that she can do and be anything that she wants but that every choice has consequences and also that if she gets stuff done then she is free to go have a ton of fun. I am not strict but I am thorough! I think hormones are kicking in big time and its natural for her to assert herself but we have always been so close it is hard!
-Hair straighteners, I bought some ritzy hair straighteners a while back and it has been the investment of my life! My hair is like of intermediate texture between straight and curled and it is very coarse texture and frizzy. I cannot get the curl to activate so I have gone down the straight route and my god these straighteners give salon results in like 5 minutes and allow me to wear my hair down everyday which is the most flattering look for my face. It may seem shallow but when I look good and polished I feel good and I expect more for myself. I know I should work on creating these feelings without a fancy hair do but whilst I'm learning that these straighteners are amazing.
-My kids school, it just got put in the top ten state schools in the country and it is giving her the opportunity to go to Catalonia and this school is 15 minutes from my place! She loves it.
-Books, what the hell would I have done all of these years without em. i actually get a lovely warm fuzzy feeling when I think about retirement and the ability to read unapologetically for days on end!
I hope evryone is doing good!
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