so instead of just mostly lurking around these parts as i have been up to now, i plan to be blergin' it up a fair bit! today is an exciting day to me because the husband part just told me last night that he's ready.

"ready for what? wait... you're READY??! for a baby?"
"well, yeah."
this after almost 2 years of negotiating when in the future might be a good time. maybe after he starts school? after the wedding is all over and done with? after we've traveled everywhere we'll ever want to go?
this after almost all the mamas i know told me that men are never really ready, and that it will just have to happen. (but i wanted this to be something we do on purpose, because we're both ready and excited!)
"i'm not sure i can get excited yet. you've said this before."
"well, this time i mean it. i've been thinking a lot about it. god! i knew you wouldn't believe me!"
"ok, ok, i believe you... you really want to start trying?"
"yes. that's what i said."
"well, ok. we're gonna have to do it A LOT, you know."
"yep, i know."

this morning i woke up feeling so excited. i've been waiting and reading and waiting and hoping for so long, or it feels that way, at least! i feel like i'm in a dream.
a sexy one.