I am in the shit

hello mamas, I usually keep stuff positive in this blog but I am in the shit and I need to tell it. I got an e-mail today from the convenor of my course saying an assignment I had handed in had been flagged up as plaguairism. I called her and she confirmed that some of the quotes had been wrongly referenced and it constituted plaguirism.

I was totally shocked. Its not THAT big a deal in one sense, I will get a 10% penalty however, there is another piece of work that if this work has come up as plaguerised , then it definetly will. I was so tired, stressed when I did it, ihave been looking at it and I have no idea what is mine, wether the references are correct.

Infact I know that it is plaguarised, I can't believe that I didn't see it I was in a daze. I am so ashamed. I have been in med schoool for 5 years, a top student, no problems and now I have transferred to a new faculty for my masters and everything has gone to shit.

I do not know what the consequences will be. I have been assured that the first one is not a big deal but the second one may change that. I am going to go in tommorrow and tell the truth and let the cards fall where they may. At this point my integrity is more important than my reputation. None of this was intentional or malicious, just stupid.

I am a good person, I am a good doctor. This does not impact on my medical degree, which is safe but it may on my academic career, well I got to take it on the chin. I've noticed a few people have spoken about losing touch and giving up on academics and regrets. I am going to take strength from those posts and not give up. I am gonna do the hardest thing and live with my mistake.

This seems so petty when compared with other peoples problems. I am still lucky, blessed and grateful. ijust learnt something about myself that I don't like but thats not the first time that that has happened and atleast now I can change it.
thanks guys