the channeling of ingmar bergman and other niceities! this is your specialized top 10! sunday!

so! SO!! how are you? where are you? i love, remember that!

1. last week i was one of 5 students chosen to write and direct a 10 minute short film. i am scared, ecstatic and ready to roll out! during the first directors meeting, my instructor showed us short poems and pictures to either use as base for a story or as a "jumping off of point". i opted to jump! i was inspired an odd hungarian painting, depicting a shadow/solid black figure - a man jumping up in the air! my instructor called this "glee". i call it: "a film about a woman who hasn't dated for a long time and is getting back on the horse. online dating 101!".

2. the trials, the tribulations, the ups and downs of coming up with a unique, original script!! - i call the feeling of this film, "hope", my instructor and a handful of the other directors called it: "perseverance".

3. isn't the same thing? merc, can you help me out here?

4. i wrote the first rough, rough draft 24 hours later and it was mind blowing! my crew was assembled last week, and EVERYONE is genius, very talented, dynamic and unique in terms of their specialties, interests and contributions - the team is behind this project 100%. i got majorly lucky this time!

5. i've faced some misunderstanding and opposition, just by a handful of folks - not everyone can see my vision, i'm letting that part go. the only thing that matters is what my crew and instructor thinks. my movie will be different and i like it that way. this is a tribute to the ladies, all over, espeically in the class. it's a chick flick for us to enjoy! and i like it that way!

6. i turn in the first "real" rough draft on tuesday, wish me luck!

7. this quarter got off to an unexpected rocky start. 4 out of 7 books still haven't arrived. it's been a pain in the ass - i won't order from individual sellers like this again! amazon is usually on point, but it's a crap shoot. i gave myself a week prior to the beginning of school and it wasn't quite enough time. if anyone can suggest a better school text book site, something more reliable, i'll take it! i put in some claims and two out of the four vendors still haven't contacted me. we'll see.

8. two of the books i absoultely needed, immediately, so i opted to check them out of the school library, after not finding them at the public library. my financial aid check was delayed and the gist was that $150 film & video deposit fee was not taken out of my last round of financial aid, so i was left with a balance. i had tried to clear this up and it was my bad, overall. i won't do this again! to be completely fair to myself, i had received conflicting information as to whether i actually owed it, blah blah blah. i received less than half my check, paid the $150 and will receive the other half at the end of next week.

9. RENT, AGAIN. this delay put me in a bad/tight spot. why is this the case, again? what can i change/re-pattern in my life in terms of money? i am facing and was served yesterday with a 3 day notice. the manager was nice and put off serving me when i told him when i could pay in full. there is very little if not, zero leeway for me around this issue. how can i handle this better next time? get over the hump, once and for all?

10. my mom - she came through. if i paid this rent up, *over a 1,000*, i would be left with nothing for 3 weeks until i get paid. i go back to work tomorrow. i didn't ask, she offered. i am grateful. i have 2 shoots to cover at the end of this month, a crew to feed, art design to tackle in order to turn my apartment into a restaurant, *all of which, i'll be reimbursed for!*. i have been emotionally bogged down for days, and my mom is going to help me. thanks mom!

11. she feels regrets over the past and not being there for me. i wish she wouldn't and someday, i'll hopeful that she won't even think about it anymore - she supported my brother and sisters education, and now mine. this means the world me, i need more help - i need her help!

12. how could i find out that i was chosen to write and direct my own piece on the same day that i face a 3 day notice?! do you see where i'm coming from?

13. i told the other 3 single mom's at lunch last week, that i would walk away from this if i had to. mars and my home come first, i'm not completely crazy! everyone was silent, except my friend who is also in a similar boat and the art director on my team. i told my mom the same thing, and she said: "christy, i don't think that you could walk away from school". i think she is secretly right, but if i had to, i would. i would feel temporarily upset and bad, but i would still continue to make movies no matter what.

14. the positive - my instructor gave us the awesome website to look up: thewashboard.org. i qualify for literally $1,000 of dollars, and i'll begin applying for money in the next two weeks. it might be more geared towards next year, but i'll take it. and in my heart, i know that i'll be in a better position - with a partner, better job, more financial aid, etc. i'll get every scholarship that i apply for.

wish me luck!

yours - christync-17!

or: "the lady who thinks that she can make "blood diamond" in just 10 minutes!".