does anyone ever feel like

their brains are leaking out of their ears? like, kind of a slow, gelatinous trickle - so slow and gelatinous, in fact, that, say, you don't really notice it until, maybe, you step out onto the balcony at work for a smoke break (i know - bad mama!) and you realize that yer mental traffic is akin to - oh, i don't know - a television show? 'cept maybe it's a television show on an old 1950's black and white set, and you don't have a tv hookup, just rabbit ears, and the screen is so staticky and wavy, you can *kind of* discern shapes and sounds, movement and murmurs, and you know if you could just get under all that static, all those waves, there would be dialogue and a plot and facial features, 'cept...you can't. and yer standing out in the cold and you realize (gasp) yer brain is...shall we say...empty? and you start to worry about all that pot you smoked in college, 'cept, that never really seemed to bother yer brain too much until you got pregnant. and now, even though yer kid is nearing two, you feel absolutely brain dead at times, like really, not much is going on up there and - well - it scares you a bit. do you ever feel like that?