i am in the thick of it, i can tell! but here is what i did/what i do and what i want! sun/10

FIND the inspiration that you need - it's out there. period. nothing else, i mean it!

1. there is so much, i laugh out loud at myself, for even trying to explain it! i must, so i try! BUT first:

gary newman:

2. we wrapped up the PSA re-shoot just a few hours ago, so i made beef and broccoli for mars and i to enjoy! prior to that very moment or this one, i got up around 700 am and made homemade potato leek soup and corn muffins for the crew. nobody could pitch in for beer money, so the large dos equis in the back of the fridge is all mine! this second shoot was recommended by our instructor, prior to the completion of last weeks initial shoot, so we re-did a few parts, added a few new shots - laid it down!. the director and i laid down the voice over last week, using my voice. things are taking shape. i am a producer of/by nature, and force. it's in my dna, i think.

3. i am taking 18 credits, they tell me! and i'm working part time, nights (20 hours) fund raising for the paramount theater. the manager got us in for free to the fierce pixies concert two nights ago. i like the pixies, it was fun!

4. the next piece will be directed by me over the course of two different days - the producer is laying down the vibe/shaping the credit card commerical - and i need to take it and run. DISCLAIMER: when you enter this business, not everyone will like your ideas or understand them. even in film school this pops up. you deal with it, because:

a. it's reality.

b. it's real.

c. it's nice that they tell you to your face when something isn't going to work/or not working with the storyline, etc.

EXAMPLE - i worked until 1 am the other night putting together a fucking fierce assed shot list and matching storyboard - i added a few extra shots to the producer's initial story/look and feel. what happened? he liked it a lot, and our instructor didn't like about 1/2 of it. the half that i created from scratch! sweet punani, this can't be helped! i still worked hard and TRIED to justify the means and my attempt to put a spin on the commerical. this is not personal, by any means - this is just how it is!

moving forward -

5. it takes major guts to do this kind of work. sometimes i have them, sometimes i don't.

6. we shot today at my place, mars stayed with me the whole time during the shoot. i realized today that the rest of her childhood would be spent on a set with me, watching me work. i would highly recommend that you do this, at some point when it's age appropriate, or if it won't drive you crazy. what more can we do for these kids? when they see you doing something that you really enjoy, there's nothing better right?

7. i am practicing the camera for the last project, a short silent film. i'm the camera woman for the job - watch me shoot!

8. tonight - hammering out my 3rd formal critique, it's not due until next week technically, but i can't work under the gun - you know that i love to write, and the process takes me a little longer than most folks! all this dang analytical thinking put to work! it's nice, but time consuming on top of reading and the final month of film school before our christmas break. i can do this, because it needs to be done.

9. i'm manifesting more money as we speak, i need it!

10. when i go to the gym these days, i like to imagine myself on a small speed boat, plowing people down and literally shooting at them *pretend laser tag, i think! BUT on water!?*. it's fun to imagine plowing down what you need to!

11. when you need to do move something, please just do it. why wait? there is no time. everything is right now.

12. hello maggles! thank you for the funny joke, it made my night!

dragon chic/christyX