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\hello, hello I was so thrilled with the replies I got to my blog! I commented back but I didn't know if its best to reply on my comments or that of the other person. I geuss I don't know the etiquette yet! After feeling so great after reaching out I felt a little resistance to coming back on. Isn't that strange? Well resistance to Hip Mama is futile so here is what is going on; This week I am...

OVERWHELMED; I have a ton of reading to do for school BUT my kid is on half term SO i reprioritised, reduced expectations on myself and others and made a freaking list (lists are my religion) and factored in FUN in the form of museum trips, Fantastic MR Fox and a late night star gazing trip in a nearby wood. We did see Jupiter but then clouds obscured the view and we crunched home through the leaves singing christmas carols (early but fun).

EXCITED and PROUD: My kid is participating in a Giselle workshop with English National Ballet this week and then watching the company perform the next day plus next week attends her pre professional classical ballet programme where the theme is Flamenco! This is not bad going for a couple of kids born into an area known locally as "rat alley". SOMETIMES in this world the cream does rise to the to the top! Also she got the results from some cognitive aptitude tests that she did in school that put her in the middle ( I would agree) BUT her first term performance in her subjects puts her in a lot of subjects right near the top of her class. That speaks volumes for her attitude and enjoyment and determination and (I think) her input from home!

PISSED OFF: Came up against some family shit this week. There are a lot of people in my family who are fossilised in past trauma and pain like the fucking Piltdown man. They have developed a set of sterotypical responses to life designed to protect then from further pain and anguish but that unfortunately stunt their further development. Its a shame and difficult sometimes to keep me and mine on a healthy trajectory. i think its good for kids to see how it is for people, how to detach with love (the only true freedom) but its hard.

GRATEFUL: I am grateful for everything I have. I DON'T take it for granted. I am grateful for this site. I don't feel so alone. I am grateful for the 25p copy of Polo by jilly Cooper that I bought last week from a market stall and the cereal I just ate and the clothes on my back.You guys are inspirational and I thank you.

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