hello! a producer producers and other non-sensical stuff from me! happy 10/sat!

i talk in pure gibberish, and i hope that it stays that way! i'm knee/armpit deep in critical/analytical thinking. most mamacita's on this board are anatyical thinkers, don't you think? i'm opening my brain up and all this kicking of the ka-nowledge is helping me to expand and grow! light is helping my brain! i'm digesting the good stuff! it's all in there, and this is what i've discovered/what i'm letting out today:

1. this is what a producer does - and if you cut and paste my head on this picture, it would look a whole lot better!

in a nutshell, i am producing the first major class project, a PSA. i've made contact with the client, life long aids alliance. i'll recieve some liteature from them on monday, some volunteer quotes on the following monday, i'm taking calls and communicating with my crew - my offical proposal is due oct.20th. i'll create the story board and script. i'll work closely with the director jo and everyone/anyone else under the sun to make this thing happen, really pull/bring it together. i'm totally shocked that i can do this naturally - i've sat in on three meetings and watched the other teams struggle a bit or alot! i flow, and so does my team. i'm responsible for the talent, etc.

2. i am also an orchid, today:

sweet, gentle, nice and sturdy! and very sexy!

i am not stanley kubrick *thank goddess! how boring would that life be?*, nor am i steven spielberg or even a hitchcock. although i suspect that i have a little hitchcock in me!

3. on the set, at school, producing and while i'm learning on the job, i am a bit more like this:

a producer must have direction, and mr. t and i have a lot in common! this is not to say that i am mean or unreasonable or ungrateful, or rejecting the added support and ideas of my crew. in reality, and in my heart & soul & creative mind, i need a little of each, to get this thing off the ground! i accept it, and i recieve gracefully. i remain focused, in love and totally positive.

4. i've been working on my first thesis for days now, i've reviewed the shit-tastic "paths of glory" so many times that my freakin' ovaries have exploded in a masculine woman-kind of way! i really don't like kubrick, why do people kiss his dead ass so much? please spare yourself, i love you way too much for you to ever watch this film! i've written 2 rough drafts and i'm meeting up with my PSA crew to study. wish me luck!

5. today is miraculous. it just is!

6. the kids are great - pulling their weight, they inspire me and encourage me to move foward on my big hollywood plans. this shit is challenging - i'm reading and studying everynight. i'm eating a ton of spinach!

7.

i want what this lady has!

8. my plans have shifted and changed - i want a college education so badly! i want this! i want to graduate, and what will happen when i complete this film? i want to sell it - i will. what offers can wait? what will i get in return for all my effort? i'm considering just filming my new york tunnel movie after this year, after my graffiti film comes out, after i walk away with some money in my pocket. i'm a guerilla i can do this my way.

9. i feel this in my heart and soul today:

10. thanks mom for sending me an amazing package! i not only loved it, but it was nicest present that i could ever think of! love you mom!

11. i'm waiting for the cable guy to show up.

12. open up your heart really wide, it's scary sometimes, and the results can be shocking, but i swear it's worth it!

yours, for real - christyXDC