Well...
I can';t even lie and say I've been lurking!
Although HM is still my homepage, I haven't looked here in so long! I've missed you! MotorMouth, you're PREGGO, you fantastic woman! I am thrilled!
There are so many new babies in and out bellies here that I feel like I've missed so much!

So much has gone on with us, as well! Bear is WALKING! All on his own! He can walk across an entire room now!And he just learned to drink from a straw! My Baby! He's getting so big! He keeps taking up more and more and more of our bed!

Speaking of bed...
coff coff..
I've even got a man these days Its fresh and new..it feels G.L.O.R.I.O.U.S!!!
the scoop:
We've bee

n partying around the same circles since I was...17(??) and never met. Bizarre-ly, I was actually camped out RIGHT next to him and his friends at a party in 2006! Any whooooooo. Apparently, my gorgeous and wonderful friend(who adores him) heard him talking about eating portabello mushrooms once and told him that he should meet me (because I made her a portabello at the beach once). He added me on Facebook a few months back, which I didn't take too much notice of because new people add me all the time.

So, a few weeks ago, my gorgey friend invites me to come hang out at her house with herself, her lovely hubby and her sweet kidlets and a bunch of other people. Gordon happened to be one of those other people. Infact,it was a get together for Gordon's younger brother Ben..and I was supposed to come and make the cake. Gordon drove Monks and I home that night(an hour in the opposite direction of his place)...he was fantastic to talk with We started talking a lot on the phone after that..he drives a truck (yeah...a trucker...he's totally not the..erm.."typical" kind, though..)

The man is SUPER sweet. We hung out last Thursday, for..I guess the first time since we met. We wandered aimlessly around Toronto (not completely aimlessly, but the art gallery we wanted to go to ended up being closed) and talked and talked. Bear seems to quite like him On the ride home, we put on some crazy loud music and boogied and held hands.
Then he called Friday morning because I left my wallet in his backpack. He brought it all the way to me on Saturday, whilst Bear and I were dogsitting for my parents. There was lots of glorious kissing and insane glee going on.

Also...BD updates, since the drama continues. I think I mentioned a while ago about having to call the cops on BD for taking Bear and leaving a supervised visit? Let me know if I didn't and I can elaborate. Anyways...BD took my parents neighbour to court, saying he threatened him (he didn't), so I had to go to court on Monday of last week as a witness thingy for him, just in case. Turns out the very rude judge just asked him if he wanted to sign a peace bond. He didn't because its unnecessary, so now I have to go back as a witness at the end of August.

Bd also just tried to sue me for contempt of a court order,which was complete and total bullcrap.I had to go to court for that on Thursday (just before my blissfully gorgeous day with Gordon) The judge told him to shut up a few times, threw out the case and ordered him to pay me 500 smackeroos before our next court date, which is the 21st of July!(we're still in court for the motion to change our original order). If he doesnt pay me by then, he's in big crap. He already owes us over 3grand in child support, plus now this extra money.

But when it all comes down to it...
I am thrilled. I am happy to be where I am right now. A beautiful growing boy. A wonderful man, with whom I expend no effort whatsoever to be happy to be with. A really nice place to live. A luscious feeling of beautiful family with those who aren't blood related. A new point of view of BD's sadness and suffering (although it doesn't make his actions right).

I am vibrating with *joy*

We can't escape the beauty that is moving our way, that is creeping closer and closer to us every day. We deserve it. We deserve love. We deserve intense beauty. We deserve infinite Bliss. We deserve to be ecstatic!

I love you all!