I'm still scared but I think it is going to be ok, because this pregnancy is definately coming along stronger than the other one. With the other one the symptoms totally petered out at about seven weeks just after we had the first ultrasound, and they were never as bad as this one. With this one we'll have the first ultrasound at eight weeks so they really should be able to see it. It's going to be there, it's really gotta be there, or I'm gonna lose my mind.

Not sure that i am cool with these breast changes. I mean it's soothing that they are so much bigger than the last time. But yesterday I woke up and overnight my nipples had turned light purple- they seriously look like they are bruised. And the breasts themselves have a bunch of little tiny spider veins all over them and from far away they look like they're mottled and the skin has this nasty cottage cheese texture. Is there anyway i could get my boobies back without sacrificing the bean?
In other- non breast related news, I started working our summer day camp this week and it's awesome. My group is so great that they almost help me forget the urge to purge (almost). I figured out this recipe with juice and ginger and sparkling mineral water that really helps with the nausea. It makes me really tired to do all these activities with the kids, but in another way it gives me energy.
This year I am taking a bigger part in the planning of our big group activities, and i think my creativity is impressing my boss. I think i am hiding how tired and nauseous i am pretty well. I get fired at the end of july and rehired at the end of september (this is normal for people who work at private academies here). So i think i won't tell her anything until she rehires me just in case.