Back from the dead?

Anyone out here in Hipmamaland remember me? Eh? Eh?

So much shit has gone down since my last update.. Lot's and lot's and lot's of therapy with the ex. Who isn't an ex any longer. We put the brakes on the divorce. Continued to live out unorthodox lifestyle with the support of our SO's we've made great strides in our relationship. The kids are doing so great.. Xan is 5 now.. (gulp) and Mal is about the turn 3.. How time flies. It's been a year of growth for everyone in my household, for me the most I think.

After much independent therapy outside of our couples therapy, I've come to terms with the fact that I am, indeed gay. I however was lucky enough to find two men, whom I found to be emotionally compatible with me, who also let me have relationships outside of ours.. As they do also. (Yeah I'm a weirdo for all you newer mama's who haven't known me for the 5+ years I've been on here) They're dealing with this pretty well. They're concerned of course. But I have no intentions of leaving them for a woman, if I find a woman, she'll just have to understand the way things work in my family, albeit large and unconventional. I love all of them so very much. All the kids, my men, their secondary partners. I lack for nothing, at the moment except learning to make myself happy. I'm still learning to put myself first sometimes, instead of thinking of everyone else first. So to all the old timers, I missed you all so so so so much and am looking forward to catching up.. To all the mama's I've yet to meet. I cannot wait to get to know you and your families!

Much loves!!

Portlandmama