you are almost 2 years old my dear

on monday you will be two years old (TWO WHOLE YEARS!)
I remember so clearly things that you will NEVER be aware of...the assumption that one week of binge drinking equated 4 weeks of sickness - turning down coke at a party because I was feeling nauseous...
Being locked in the bathroom by a loving and concerned friend (who just married the boy I thought I was falling in love with while dating while pregnant with you - life is weirder than you know *yet*) who wouldn't let me out until I peed on the stick (happy face=pregnant and sad=no - how ironic and presumptious)
long conversation about 'options' with said friend
your 'dad' deciding 'wolf spider' was a good name (hey - wolf would fit this boy!)
struggling to survive telling so fresh an ex husband I was preggos
coming here for answers
close girlfriends who were astounded at my character for keeping you
the day I decided I couldn't - and then less than 24 hours later deciding I had to (and every day being SO SO SO x infinity glad I made the choice to keep you)
telling your 'dad' that nothing would stop me
enjoying every GOD DAMNED MINUTE of your pregnancy - being fat and sick and tired and happy (after a drawn out split from your sister's dad)
feeling you kick head down at 32 weeks (how's that for timing?)
seeing Kimya Dawson in concert so close to your birth and screaming at punk kids smoking near me....mostly backed up by much bigger than me friend (now married to boy who was my date to show...)
water breaking on my bike...calling friend to meet me for dinner ('shouldn't you call your midwife first?')
eating burritos and ice cream waiting for imminent contractions...
the contractions coming...you coming...the MOST BEAUTIFUL AND AMAZING DAY OF MY LIFE: and now for pictures
welcome dear
http://i23.photobucket.com/albums/b358/brainymom/P1020132.jpg
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http://i23.photobucket.com/albums/b358/brainymom/P1020132.jpg
http://i23.photobucket.com/albums/b358/brainymom/P1020220.jpg
http://i23.photobucket.com/albums/b358/brainymom/P1030634.jpg
2 year old pictures to follow...

The last month in pictures...
http://i23.photobucket.com/albums/b358/brainymom/Photo_041209_002.jpg
http://i23.photobucket.com/albums/b358/brainymom/Photo_042709_003.jpg
http://i23.photobucket.com/albums/b358/brainymom/Photo_061709_001.jpg
(you can't tell he's wearing a run dmc shirt)
http://i23.photobucket.com/albums/b358/brainymom/Photo_051709_001.jpg
http://i23.photobucket.com/albums/b358/brainymom/Photo_052509_002.jpg
http://i23.photobucket.com/albums/b358/brainymom/Photo67.jpg
I love you BIG MAN! 3:02 am Friday June 29, 2007 you came in to my life...
THANK YOU