empty
for weeks i had thought that the feeling i had been having was anxiety, but this morning i realized that it is the void in my heart where he used to be.
i desperately wish i could talk to him. but there is nothing i can say right now.
he is afraid of being nice and casual with me, for fear that he will be leading me on. its not that he doesnt want our relationship anymore, he just doesnt know what he wants... so he doesnt want to lead me on.
but he was nice, and we did have a connection the other night. it was best without words. it was just a hug, and it was a real moment where we connected.
i am all turmoil this morning. the first time i have woken up in the quietness of my empty house, with nothing i must do this morning. i wish it could be a treat, but mostly i feel the emptiness from where he used to be
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Listening, Huck. Hugging you, too. What you are feeling is worse than an actual bullet going through the heart. I wish I were a heart doctor.
Oh mama, I've been there. ((((Hugs)))) Vibing you guys.
damn mama i feel you so much right now, i feel the same i just don't have to deal with the interaction because he is across the country. You are not alone and that feeling will get better i promise you that, hang in there mama peace is coming to your heart. much much love for you, j
Jessica
Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind~~Dr.Seuss
Oh god that is a hard kind of alone. I hope so much for you that you feel at least one small sweet moment each day . . .
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