Climbing out from under my rock for an update(birthdays, cops, men and grats)

Fiiiiirst of all...the site looks fabulous Way to go, techies!

I've been guilty of lurking lately (again). Reading, but not saying anything. Partially because I have nothing to say, and partially because Mash got me started on the Twilight series and I became so addicted that doing anything else besides reading once Bear was in bed seemed like a complete waste of time. Talk about escapism... Great books though!

So what's been going on here?
Bears first birthday is on Sunday! Wow! I can't even believe it! My baby! He's almost one!
My birthday just passed (the 15th of May), so I am now the big TWO TWO

Back in court with BD. The usual crap. I really don't think the man is capable of being honest, either with others OR himself. Either that, or he is DELUSIONAL. Could be either one.
Yesterday was a huge stress. BD has supervised visits, on Wednesdays they are at my parents house and supervised by my mum (his alternate weekend visits are held at an Access Centre). So yesterday, he waited until my mom was distracted on the phone for a second, p[icked up Bear and walked out the front door. My mom got off the phone to go after him, trying to call him back. He told her to fuck off, that he was "going to get a fucking coffee. this is my fucking son and I can take him whereever I fucking want to" and continued on down the road. I was out of the bathtub by this point, dripping on the porch in a towel and having a spaz attack, while my mom got our ex-cop neighbour and called 911. Our neighbour walked after BD for a bit, telling him he needs to smarten up, and how is this going to make him look in court? BD just replied basically the same thing he said to my mom. So I took the phone and talked to the 911 lady, while my mom got in the car and went after BD. He ended up walking around the block and coming back, because my mom was behind him. He came back to the house, put Bear on the ground. The Cops were really close, but not on our street yet. I said that to him. He told me that he'd go to "the fucking police station" himself and went and got into his van. The cop turned the corner, and BD started the car anyways and took off down the street, but did stop when she turned her lights on...two more cruisers showed up and he was talked to by FIVE cops, and couldnt keep his story straight.
Long story short, she took our report and refused to take his because he was rude and very obviously lying (she said she could tell. Plus some of the things he said were ridiculous, such as that he left the house bcecause the neighbour started yelling at him for no reason, and that he had never been to my parents place for a visit before, even though they've been happening there SINCE I LEFT HIM). I got a call from the cop later on to ask me a few more questions for a formal report. She mentioned that BD had gone to the police station after being dismissed(this all happened before he had even been there for an HOUR, and the cop told him his visit was over, thank maude!) and said that my neighbour had threatened to "rearrange his face" (he didn't.)The cops there wouldnt take his report either.

What are my thoughts on this?
-is it REALLY so important that he have his own way that he'll just give up a visit with his son?>
-or was he expecting to be able to walk all over us and have us just let him leave when he is supposed to stay at the house?
-what the hell was going through his head? I can't even pretend to know
-I am just SUPER glad that Bear is fine. BD was on foot. I suppose I could have chased him, but where would that have gotten me? I didn't want an altercation, better to just let the cops do it. Besides, I wouldnt want BD misdirecting his anger at Bear.
-Bear did however, throw up BIG TIMEafter BD left (he usually throws up after visits, but yesterday, he threw up a LOT)

Anyways, onto the better stuff. We're moving next week! I'm excited, but unprepared. The date snuck up on me. I also don't want to live in this city anymore. Hell, I don't want to live in this COUNTRY anymore.

There are some lovely men come into my life these days. One I met online through a friend. Well, I guess we used to party in the same circles but never met. All of his Facebook shares always used to make me smile or be right on par with how I was feeling, so we started talking one day. We both felt this instant amazing connection to one another..like maybe we've known eachother before, or are just meant to be part of one anothers lives. We would send each other random messages at the same times. had some great text conversations. So I went to visit my friend, who happens to live with Carlos (the aforementioned man). It was fabulous. We went to a big park to sit under the Cherry blossoms and listen to ambient music by the river with a HUGE crowd of people. I got to see a whole lot of old friends again, and introduce Bear, and re-introduce my different-but-same self. Carlos and I didn't talk much...buut it was so beautiful to be near him. I almost felt like my skin was electric. When it was time for Bear and I to leave, hhe and Cesar walked us out of the park to the subway station...Carlos held out his arm for me to hold all gallant-like I could feel the energy pouring off of him..maybe it sounds wierd, but it was like being that close to one another made us closer...like we traded energies.

I also met Cesar, who is a friend of Carlos and my other friend Adam (and also with a bunch of other people I know). Bear LOVES him! Loooooves! He is great, as well. Hilarious. A lot chattier than Carlos, and funny as hell. And a bit bizarre, but I like that. He was another person who I immediately felt close to. Since then, he's sent me a few online messages about how heavenly it felt to be near me...
what is it with Latin guys and their way with words?!

Maybe I just need some attention. No, not maybe, I DO.
Both of those boys are so beautiful to me, in different ways. I am happy that they have come into my life. Maybe there will be romance? Maybe at least some sex? But even with neither of those, I am so happy to be making loving new friends

Who knew that this projection thing really worked? I have done so much to change myself, my pattersn, my ways of thinking to try and become a more positive loving person, in order to attract positive loving people to myself...and I do!Yay!

so...grats:
1. A super sunny day today. Bear and I played outside all day. I got a GREAT tan
2. Eating dates with the pit popped out and a nut stuck in the middle. yum yum!
3. Love Beings being brought into my life!
4. Finally getting to move and reset our lives. I may still be "stuck" in Canada, but I will make the best of it. Especially now that summer is on its way!
5. Speaking of summer, CAMPING! Music Festivals! B-man and I have a very busy summer ahead
6. Yay for being accepted for employment insurance again so I can do my distance ed nutritionist courses and NOT have to work all day!
7. And yay for my little jobs doing demos of products atthe store where I used to work.
8. Yay for my little guy being almost one!
9. I'm very proud of myself for taking yesterdays BD theatrics in stride and not having a complete mental/emotional meltdown while he walked down the street with my world in his arms. I willnever know how his brain works..nor do I WANT TOO! Grateful that I am not him.
10. Grateful for Hipmama, where even though I lurk, I still always feel at home

Love you ladies