encouragement

Writing to all of you is encouragement enuf, so don't feel you have to respond. IF you do, thanks.

Feel rather awful- woke up
w/ upset stomach, incredibly tired, nauseous, and kind of dizzy. My friend's daughter
has a stomach virus and this feels more like that. I felt a bi tof the same
yesterday- super tired and draggy and little queasy, so ate carefully all day.
Today is worse and makes me think this is viral and not IBS ( have a mild case), esp after eating carefully
and sleeping 7 hours. I feel and look like someone banged me over the head.

It's scary for me b/c it feels like I so need to support us in all ways (I'm our main provider of all) and Marcus is depending
on me
in every way. I only have one group today and am thinking of canceling it, I just
feel
so rotten I'm not sure if I can even go in and do it. I feel drugged w/ sleepiness.
My friend's girl has slept 2 days almost straight and nauseous/stomach pains, so
maybe
I have that.

I took Marcus to Marine Bio class and to play w/ a friend after this a.m. but he
does not have school this p.m. OR
tmw, luckily he's going to my sister's for a few hours.

Or am I just suddenly burnt out from stress: coupel weekends w/out much break (til
this one),
only free time a random date I then had to deal w/ breaking off w/ another clingy guy, lots of travel, work
and childcare
demands past 2 weeks, drinking too much wine (a glass everynight and 1-2 on weekends-
a lot for me)
not enough down time, looking at apts to move into, the election, my ex on the fritz of late,
doing my billing/clients
chronic money worries.

What to do? It scared me to feel borderline incapacitated. I SOOOOOOOO need my
body to cooperate, or my life
to ease up. One or the other. I have been breathing, going w/ the flow. Why so
yuck?

Love
M