sunday morning blog

call it my brain puke, call it my 10... here are my thoughts:

1. went out last night to buy a bra. what freakin size am I? The bigger question is when will my body shrink back down to size?? Baby is 19 months old and nursing is over. I try not to get overtaken by frustration about this when I spend time with my friend who is the same age as me, has a baby the same age as mine and weened her guy just a week before me (all coincidences, weird, huh?). I try to reason with myself by saying that this is my third and only her first. Then I think that maybe cause she is an actress she needs to stay fit and trim. But then I wonder how??

2. dude, the beastie boys were at a wedding down the road from my house (by 20 minutes, but it's nowhere land so it's like next door...) and my friend played bluegrass music at the reception. How do I accidentally run into them? It's my morning plot. Maybe they shop at co-ops and will come to mine while I am working today.

3. my baby drinks chamomile tea like most babies drink milk - from a bottle and to be soothed. It makes me smile, but I still think that there needs to be moderation for everything.

4. My new friend - I know I already mentioned her, but I really like her and we are really similar (ok, I'm not a famous actress, but most other things). She likes to come over to my house and I like her here cause I makes me feel more secure in who I am. If she doesn't mind hanging out in my messy home that barely fits us, then I know that my home is at least welcoming, and that makes me happy. It also makes me feel like we are forming a good friendship and she digs who I am. I haven't made a new friend in a while, it definitely becomes more difficult as I get older.

5. this baby. man, am I enjoying him. he is just learning to talk and I am constantly fascinated at how much he understands! I feel frustrated and a little sad that I don't remember this with my older 2, but at least they get appreciate the baby's cute and sweetness like I do. Seriously - so. cute.

6. AND, my baby poops and pees on the potty. wtf? he just does it whenever. it rocks. he can't necessarily control it, but he can get the pee and poop in the potty when he tries.

7. my blazer - someone freakin buy it! I know suvs suck, but this is a good car that I loved and took care of for almost 7 years! it's in great shape and I'm selling it cheap... I really need to send my kids' school some $$, as well as the credit card company that calls me 5x a day now. oh, and I really want more ink (thanks catmama)... and if there is any extra $$ (there won't be, I owe a lot) then I was thinking about getting an official divorce from my ex, but eh, we've been married all this time, what's the difference?

8. bacon. mmmm, it's brunch on the hot bar at work and they always serve bacon and vegan tofu french toast that rocks. do you think that bacon and vegan french toast together is like an oxymoron? is that the right word even?

9. I must still have some alcohol in my system from last night's night out, I realize after re-reading this post.

10. found an american girl doll on craig's list and the woman is bringing it to me today at work. dd will be so excited, but I have to wait for the right moment to give it to her. she has been the cause for quite a bit of discipline lately, so I do hope there will be a reason for reward soon. I'm kinda excited about this silly doll, only cause I know how much she will appreciate it.

11. (bonus point) - these 2 guys totally tried to pick us up last night and it was so weird and undesirable. I used to like that feeling that someone thought I was hot, but it was just annoying. The guys were like 25 and shocked that we were older. They never caught our age, but they got that my friend has a 14 yo daughter and that freaked him out. That was our plan - I am only (only? already?) 30 and my friend might be 31 or 32 - not old, but too old for those dudes... sorry kids, find some other chicks to party with.

Thanks mamas for reading! I will do this again soon since I have more on my mind...