Submitted by mnemosyne on Thu, 05/08/2008 - 8:44pm.
My grandmother lives across the country and is rapidly deteriorating with Alztheimers, however it's spelled. We've been talking about going out for a visit, but really just can't afford it. We have to buy a new car, and that kills me to prioritize a car over visiting my dying grandmother, but this is the reality.
My mom mentioned off-handedly that she would help us out with plane tickets. Then I got an email from my aunt who handles my grandmothers estate. She said my mom had asked her to take money from my grandma's account to fly us out. We spoke and she said she wasn't comfortable doing that, but she would be willing to help us out with money that she is taking from the account--that all 3 daughters are taking money from the account. I don't know amounts, but consider that in the past year my mom and her husband have gone to Europe twice, bought a new car and a $4000 couch, etc. etc.
So part of me feels like, I'm almost 30 and don't want to be in this place of needy brokeness, and part of me feels like damn my pride I want to see my grandma before she dies, that my grandma always helped my mom out, that my relatives are buying new cars while I'm trying to decide if I should charge a visit or not buy a car so I can do this.
So should I
A. Suck it up and ask for help from whoever will?
B. Suck it up and pay money I can't afford to visit while I still can?
or C. Be realistic that I can't afford it, and not go.
Thanks for hanging in my long spiel, i'm interested in outside thoughts on this.
and don't waste a minute. my grandma had alzheimer's. it can take a while before it really becomes horrendous, but then it just keeps getting worse, faster and faster, until it finally ends.
i'm so sorry your family is facing this. vibes to your grandmother.