Bad Mommy/Rough Morning

Submitted by lana on Tue, 05/06/2008 - 4:37pm.

Ugg. This morning I was running late and feeling stressed out - dashing around to try to get us out the door so I could get the kid (4) to daycare and myself to work on time. She threw some crazy fit about what she was going to wear - "Dresses with ties in the back are too difficult!!! It's not tight enough!!! Wahhhhhhhhh!!!"
I was completely impatient with her and then smacked her on her little butt while she wailed inconsolable all alone in the hallway. In the midst of her tears she told me, "Calm down Mommy! It's not OK to hit!" I apologized to her and confirmed that indeed, it is not OK to hit.
But I feel like shit. I am at work now just feeling guilty and sad and wishing I could be home hanging out with her and taking her to do something fun. Instead I will pick her up after work, probably tired and grouchy again, get her home, feed her dinner, bathe her, and put her to bed. No fun.

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Submitted by lana on Wed, 05/07/2008 - 4:36pm.

Thanks guys. After I picked her up at the babysitter's house I took her for a bike ride to the park. She seemed happy when I picked her up, so I don't think she's permanently scarred. Smiling

Submitted by Enelesn on Tue, 05/06/2008 - 6:22pm.

I've been there and I know how it feels.
What we do as full-time Mama's and full-time employees is hard (especially when we do it alone.. heck, I finally have some help now and it's STILL hard).
I really don't understand why work has to tkae up so much of our lives. I always think, am I working to live or living to work? Because I feel like I am always at work and hardly home with my boy and when I am, I'm exhausted and I have to catch up on all of the doctor's appointments, laundry, dishes, cleaning, shopping, etc.
There's got to be a better way!
Go home and try to see if you and your little one can have some special time either before bed or for bed. Sometimes what everyone needs is a good snuggle.

Submitted by PattyCakes on Tue, 05/06/2008 - 6:04pm.

I know you are feeling terrible. Its so rediculous that full time is so well, full time. I give you mad amounts of credit to be able to do what you do everyday. You sound like in your posts, you are having a hard time adjusting to a routine where you feel like you aren't seeing her much throughout the week. I know that feeling. I really dispise the way everything in the world is set up. Theres not enough jobs, and too many people missing out on living, so why is it okay to keep beating a dead horse, you know? People should work full time as in twenty hours a week and make what they make at forty, and the fat cats could eat macaroni and cheese and hamburger helper once in a while and take the bus instead of a Lexus and we could all be alot better off in the long run. i am so sorry that you feel this way, but pretty soon you will have her in school all the time and this will just be lifes rythem. Cheer up, your baby loves you!

Submitted by bleu7102 on Tue, 05/06/2008 - 5:10pm.

Oh mama, I'm so sorry you had a crap morning. I can so relate to the morning rush or trying to get to daycare and work on time. You apologized and that's huge, I think. Vibes for a better night and whole new day tomorrow.

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