We buried my Grandfather yesterday. The week has gone by so quickly and has been so long at the same time. I am exhausted in spite of having gone to bed the same time as DS three of the past four nights!

The funeral and viewings were well attended by family and friends. My Grandmother has been very stoic and sweet. At the funeral home she kept saying that he looked so good she could fall in love with him all over again.

After the viewing my sister, two cousins, DH, and my father all went to get a drink. I had three, which is A LOT for me. My sister and I both got drunk and towards the end of the night my cousin and I were talking about Heaven and God and her faith and my disbelief and it upset my sister. She started yelling at me; I yelled back, it was not good. And was finally the catalyst for the cry I've been needing to have for the past few months.

By the next morning we'd both apologized and made up. The day was beauitful and I'm so glad that he was buried so close to home so that we can visit lots but it was just such a long day.

Adding to the stress of it all we spent a lot of time around my niece and nephew who are obviously not diabetic. Their being able to eat whatever and whenever made everything a lot more difficult for me with DS. Though he handled it like a champ, sometimes I just get struck by how much easier things would be if after four hours of being in a funeral parlor I could just let him eat some goldfish crackers. Ya know?

Anyway, in an hour I am going to take DS to my mom's so I can get back to school and studying for all my finals this week. Deferring them was a lifesaver but I've sort of lost my momentum and couldn't really care less. (Though I keep reminding myself its $70k on the line.) I also have to turn a 12 pg paper into a 30 pg paper but by Friday I will be finished my second year! Woo hoo! I've informed DH that my reward is for us to take a day to go to Philly to see the Frida Kahlo exhibited that some of the other hipMamas have seen. I am REALLY looking forward to it.

(Oh and my in-laws were amazing. They went to my parents between viewings set up all the food for everyone to come back to and then cleaned everything up. Put DS down to bed and stayed with him so DH and I could attend the evening viewing without him and go out for drinks. They are the best and I really do love and appreciate them. They are just great people.)