i'm tired.

i've spent the day cleaning, which is pretty normal. the sad thing is, no one will even notice tonight. it wont be clean anymore, since i have a family that lives here.

i'm tired of being giant. my back hurts. I cant even wash dishes comfortably because my belly gets in the way. i have to kind of turn a little bit sideways. its very uncomfortable, but really what isnt.
my very favourate thing is going to bed. taking off my clothes that are constantly falling down because they dont fit. laying down and taking the pressure off my back, legs and feet.

i'm really nervous of this whole birthing a baby thing. i guess its totally normal and everything, but still it freaks me out. my last experiance was wonderful, and this time i'll be at home. so you'd think i'd be excited and ready and all that. but no. i'm not. i cant think about how i'll get through it, and then how i'll deal with life after. that part is pretty terrifying. i'm sure it'll work itself out and all that, but damn i dont see how.

anyway, its just my ranting for the day. maybe i'll have a nap when the kids are napping.