hi babes,

how are you? i hope you're smiling! if your not, don't worry about it. there's no pressure here! you've got RIGHT NOW, tomorrow, the next day, next week - we've got a lifetime together, i don't sweat the small stuff anymore.

and how could i? i can break shit with my mind, yell, kick and scream better than the best of them. i do this for you, for me, for the universe. and yes, she's listening!

1. i was fearful this week, and i'm shaking it off as we speak. i actually considered getting a sex change! (i've threatened this so many times!). and why not? i'm the best man around somedays! (most days!). if you saw me, you would laugh. people can't tell on the surface. i've warned the men on eharmony, and yet they still come!

2. and yes, i want them too! one man has captivated my attention, and vice versa. i will meet him and enjoy his company, he will like my legs, smile, hair and heart! don't forget my scorpio eyes! (sometimes i spook myself out!). i'm a giver, and so is he. we'll see where this goes.

3. myspace - this has been a blessing in disguise. thank you hipmama's for finding me, reaching out, loving me, and pepping me up when i need it.

4. i purchased a new set of tight's for this coffee date. oh coffee dates! they lead to so many things, why is this? i gotta love them, they seem to be the only way to do this, these days! i went madonna circa 85'. i swore i wouldn't do this! i am a nerd, AGAIN! the youngster's are wearing the footless tights and they look so cute in them! all hail the queen! i bought some with skulls on them, this should do the trick!

5. i'm going into this round more prepared than the last, more confident, self assured, and i know what to do/what not to do. i change my mind, i'm still working on the "what not to do part"!!! i'm figuring this dating shit out, wish me luck!

6. this man has been married, and has two children, and is 2 years younger than me, good looking, is working on a film, and is all spiritual and shit. wish me luck twice! i need someone on my level or higher. i suspect that he fits the "higher" category.

7. i had fun last night! my son picked up his sister, and i got to go out on a friday night! i haven't done this for at least 2 years! i had pho with haley, who i love dearly. her friend anthony was so cool! these guys are 24, and let me in, i feel honored when i'm around younger people. these kids are fucking smarter than us! (we need to keep telling them this!).

we went to a kick ass semiar on insomnia, got some bomb coffee (yes i'm 35, still!) and he took us to his work and showed us his amazing office. i was up looking over seattle in a posh downtown building at 11 pm at night, cracking jokes, doing my psychic stuff, and talking about past lives/animals. i love these guys.

(i totally embarrassed myself AGAIN! haley started to sing a song, and i asked her if it "death metal"?! jesus christ! both of these kids looked at me and tried to play it down! NEVER, say the word "death metal" to anyone under 35! it's totally unecessary!).

8. this young man was so sweet, i could tell him what i saw in his future, and he took it in. he drove us home, and it was the funnest night i've had in years.

9. my kids - this week was so tough! teenager battles, more bullshit, it was exhausting! i'm gearing up for my trip, and i can't wait to get out of dodge, i really need a break. i'm not hanging onto a wire anymore, i offically let it go this week. thursday was the breaking point. i will find a new job when i get back, and start fresh.

10. x-stina - hi baby! thank you for reaching out to me, i'm getting my ticket on monday, i know, it's last minute. i'll holler at you soon! hope you're relaxing and having some fun this weekend!

11. the future/my future is filled with: lunch with p-diddy, a hug from chaka khan, an academy award, new york city, graffitti art, a man naked in a bathtub, conquering my fear of being fearful!, FRIENDS! FAMILY, assistants, bright lights, speaches, red carpets, diso divas, elton john on a sunday afternoon, a phone call from madonna in the middle of the day, music, album cover art, director's chair, rap music, BET awards, a wedding, a son, happiness, creativity, MONEY up the ass, houses, maids (well paid!), security (well paid!), a gun (just for protection!) two dogs, psychics everywhere, paloma by my side, and a smile in the mirror.

i love you - dragons!