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Sucking it up.

By mnemosyne
Created 02/23/2008 - 6:37am

I'm primarily self employed, and while I love my work I'm not sure I'm such a great boss for myself. I've been comparing myself lately with some of my (childless) peers; seeing their sharp websites, the research and extra projects they're doing, their fancier, more expensive and time consuming set-ups. A main reason I chose my profession is that it lets me set my own schedule. This was the plan, that I wouldn't work all the time, that I would prioritze my kids, working and earning less, for now. I guess I'm wanting more.
I've been thinking of going back to school, but I'm torn as far as in what. There are a lot of things I'd like to learn to add to my business now...but that leaves me in the perpetually self employed catagory, which doesn't always feel so stable. The idea of having employable skills, with a retirement plan and health benefits and guaranteed work is pretty appealing in ways.

I have a job on the side, a stupid waitressing gig I do a couple nights a week. I'm good at it, the money is great, and it's a nice busy multi-tasking superficially social contrast to my primary work. And it's corporate. And I got "written up" tonight--for something I don't feel was wrong and my managers don't feel was wrong, but them following Corporate Procedure and filing me away as a drone, a number, rather than a valued and respected employee. This doesn't sit well with me. My knee jerk reaction is to walk off. But I'm sucking it up--because that's the real world, right?

I guess I'm just trying to weigh the benefits and cons of self-employment vs. working for the man. When taking the easier route is the smarter choice, or when it's selling out. I know you can't give me the answers--but maybe you can tell me your perspectives and experiences. What do you think, mamas?


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