hypochondria and related issues....
so about 2 months ago my left breast started getting painfully swollen and was noticeably larger than the right (to me). And I did not breast feed my 20 month old at all due to the need to take anti-epileptic medication that crosses into breastmilk AND my breastmilk dried up over a year ago. So this was weird. And during my self breast exam I expressed some thick yellow/green colostrum like stuff from the left nipple. And I AM not pregnant I rarely have sex and have an IUD to boot. Plus we use additional methods. So add to all of this that I found a lump in the left armpit that is hard and the size of a small marble. Doesn't hurt-except that I keep massaging it to see if it is still there and after a couple weeks (since I noticed it) it is.
Now my family has no history of breast cancer. I have an appointment with my provider tomorrow and I expect that it will be nothing. But in my head I have Sally Field holding my hand as I lay on my deathbed wearing a scarf, body wracked with cancer....
AND...part of me is scared that it won't be nothing and how fucking inconvienent.
And I have said nothing to anyone in my life about this because I am a known hypochondriac and this is serious and I am afraid that this might really be something to worry about so I have ignored it.
anyway I just needed to get it out there to the universe.
"I don’t have to keep up some great pretention I’m the most dignified, eloquent, elegant, perfect, smart-thinking, kind, generous person. I’m just a plain old human with a whole bunch of flaws.”-- Lily Tomlin
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and, even if you are a hypochondriac, you shouldn't be ignored. imho.
take care, i'll be vibing for you.
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Go and rule out the cancer.
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I'm glad that you are getting this checked out. Let us know how it goes. I'll be vibing hard for you.
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in this situation. Chances are it's not cancer, but if it is, then you'll be catching it early. I had a similar situation, but it was sooner after I'd stopped breastfeeding. Actually, I noticed the change in size and lump before then, but the doctor waited until several months after I stopped lactating to remove it. What I had ended up being benign fibroadenomas (two of them). I've recently had some similar pain/discharge, so I have an appointment for next Monday to get it checked out. Really, better safe than sorry. Keep us posted about how it turns out.
thanks for the update
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My OB thinks thatthe bbsized lump is a skin issue she didn't think that it felt deep enough for it to be anything to worry about but the icky stuff that was expressed from my nipple was another issue. she wants me to keep an eye on it (of course nothing was there today) and if it continues then I will go in for a radiodye injection study of my ducts or something like that.
whew! I feel much relieved!
"I don’t have to keep up some great pretention I’m the most dignified, eloquent, elegant, perfect, smart-thinking, kind, generous person. I’m just a plain old human with a whole bunch of flaws.”-- Lily Tomlin