Apology to the community

Back in the day I had a dear friend who periodically, often on the Saturday morning after a particularly raucous Friday night, would do something she liked to call: "The Asshole Roundup." She would call up all involved parties and say: "Good Morning! It's an asshole roundup. Who was the asshole last night?"

And, often, whoever was getting the call would then remember the bar fight or the too-drunk-to-fuck one-night stand or the maudlin rant in the parking lot and they would say: "It was me."

Well. In blog world equivalent to an asshole roundup, I have to say: It was me.

I feel pretty shitty about the way the breastfeeding blog went; I feel pretty shitty that so many people, on all sides of the issue, felt attacked; And I feel REALLY shitty that I then freaked out and deleted the whole fucking thing in some misguided attempt to diffuse the situation. I'm pretty new to the whole blogging world, but it occurs to me that deleting a blog that big, with that much invested, is a big, big mistake. I mean, that sucker was enormous. It had taken on a life of its own. It wasn't even mine anymore--and yet I charged in, the Lone Ranger of All Things Lactation--and I deleted it. Which, effectively, took the choice away from everyone. Wow. Not my finest moment.

My apologies to the community as a whole, and specifically to Denesasma (sp?), Sunflower, Mrs. Sauce, and IdiotGaloot (also, sp?). I'm really sorry, Ladies. Bad calls from top to bottom on my part. ~Beth