My Follow Up

Thanks again for everyone support! I wanted to write a follow up to my last blog. I spent some time trying to figure out how to help myself and I feel pretty proud of the strides I have made. I bought a book that my counselor recommended to me, and I am on chapter 3. (In addition to my crappy self esteem, I had an ex that, I don't know if you would say that he stocked me, but he defiantly checked up on me more than a healthy amount, came into the house when I was in the shower, and left notes on my car.) So I have trouble going out by myself. I have been taking walks and going to the bookstore with DD. This Tues. We are going to a playdate for a new mother's group. This is a big thing for me. Even DH was impressed. DH is always saying he likes my new body. He thinks it is curvy and voluptuous. So I ask him to help me see myself through his eyes. So we are going to embark on an art project together. He is going to take pictures and do drawings of me. He promises to make them tasteful, and artistic. Something that I help me feel attractive not skanky. So that's where I am now. I know I can't change myself or my thought process over night, but I feel better that I am moving in that direction.