during the time i was in school to become an LNA my 35 mo daughter was in daycare full-time, which the state was paying for in full besides a $26 co-pay from me. or so i thought; it turns out that the state has been shorting her provider in pay every week. i've been doing the phone-call mindfuck for a couple days now (leaving messages at one office and being referred to another one, leaving a message at the other one and then being referred BACK to the first one!) and i finally spoke to someone this morning. so it turns out the maximum weekly amount they'll pay for a licensed family day-care provider is $130/week, whereas they'll pay up to $180/week for a licensed CENTER. my daughter's provider charges $170/week and the state has been subtracting my $26 co-pay from their max amount of $130, so they've only been paying her $104/week...which means i owe her money now that i don't fucking have!
i'm *pissed* right now. what could be the reasoning behind this totally ridiculous logic?! these are new guidelines, because when i was working and getting childcare assistance before there was no stupid rule that parents sending their kids to a family center had to pay MORE every week. i choose a family center for a good fucking reason: that i PREFER it. i like knowing that there's one woman that i trust very much taking care of my daughter. i like that this woman runs her center like a pre-school, and that my daughter has grown and thrived in her care over the last two years (on and off) that she's been there. i like knowing that my daughter is with three other little girls that she knows very well when she's at "school", and that "school" is someone's house.
so why am i being penalized for this?? this woman is a LICENSED provider; she's been running her family center for 15 years; she's not a baby-sitter. i'm furious that my child-care options are being limited in this way.... this could mean that when i find a job and start sending noa to "school" full-time again, i may have to send her to a huge mega-center because paying that extra $150/mo to send her to the family center will probably be unaffordable for us. i'm barely making ends meet right now and as a single mother doing the best i can to do what's right for myself and my daughter, i'd like to meet anyone who had a part in this new guidline and give them a piece of my pissed-off mind. or punch them in the face. i'm not sure which yet.