i went to the doctor on thursday, for my regular checkup and strep b test. she decides to go ahead and do an internal exam to see where the baby is at. On it's fucking way out!!! that's where! Okay not really. but pretty close. She says i'm 2 cm dilated and 70% effaced (thinned out). Her head is completely engaged in my pelvis. How did I not realize any of this? (Sure, the day before I was having contractions like, every hour, but nothing major.) Prior to finding this out, she's telling me 'oh ya know, most first timers go past their due date a little. so don't be disappointed if you have false labor, or it takes awhile.' Then, she does the exam and has this 'oh shit. never mind' look on her on her face. I went from having a baby next month to any fucking minute in one doctor visit. I'm not even packed yet! What am I supposed to take? I'm using cloth diapers, but I don't know how many I need. Please tell me some of you stayed 2 cm dialted for weeks and weeks, so I can stop freaking out. I'm totally cool as a cucumber on the outside, but my brains are goin 'oh shit man!! you're gonna have a fucking BABY dude!! It's gonna hurt REALLY bad! A person is going to come of your vagina!!!'
Way Too Real