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alright.
I have to be comepltely honest with mysself here.
I need a job.
I don't want to work. I was so hellbent on being home with the boy..but I have no skills people would pay money for(at least not enough to live)so working from home doesn't feel like an option.

I don't live in the city I am trying to get a job in, and i don't drive. I am going insane having to rely on my parents for everything again. Including transportation. Ugh. I am having a really hard time finding anyone willing to rent out an apartment to someone who doesn't have a job yet. But how am I supposed to get to work? I don't really want to just start a job here then quit a few weeks later once I find us a home.

I need resume help.
I can't find my old one ANYWHERE! and with it has gone all the dates where I worked places and all the info of those places. So I need to start from scratch completely.

I am 22. I have no "career path" and no post-secondary education yet. Hell, i still haven't decided what I want to go to school for yet. I have hopped around from retail job to retail job since I started working as a teenager, with a few brief stints at halfdecent offices.

I would really like to work only part time..I doubt thats a possibility though, as I don't really have the experience to get into a higher paying place that would give me enough money to pay rent and provide for my son and I while only working part time.

BD doesn't help at all with child support, so thats not even a little bit of help...
and I also haven't worked for the last two years while I've been home with my little one...although for some reason, being a mother is not qualifcation enough to do Daycare work.

I am so frustrated. Can anyone give me any advice at all? I don't even know where to start!

So...
I have a new partner these days, and have been wondering to myself which avenue for birth control to take. I (ashamedly) will admit that I am always so effing terrible with condoms. I don't really know why. I have a tendency to get lost in the heat of the moment, I guess. Irresponsible, yes...but honest.

I have a Mirena IUD up in my drawer that I had gotten not long after Bear was born and still never had it put it. I have an appointment tomorrow to go have it inserted, since it will be day two of my period...but I'm TERRIFIED. I have read a lot of horror stories about them...and I really don't want to have huge cramps from insertion and a lot of bleeding this weekend because I am going out (one of the rare Mama nights *grin*). I am also a little wierded out by the hormone idea.

Pre-Bear I had used a pill, which I forgot to take half of the time, anyways(ohhh, those old stoner days..)...but they sent me for a real loop. I was grouchy ALL the time and had no sex drive whatsoever. At all. NONE. And I am a sex lover. So I'm counting pills out.

What have you ladies tried?? What would you recommend or not recommend??