Today i should've been half way to my very first happy mother's day. Or my first day as a mother anyway. I should be four and a half months pregnant, finally past the point when you can start telling people.
But at my first obstetricians appointment they did an ultrasound. I had read what to expect when you're expecting, and expected full well to see a tiny little worm with a speck of a heart. But we saw nothing, a black hole where i had made a tiny little home for nobody.--read more >>

I feel like a total dork. buzzing around the blogs, everybody's got a cool user name... and i totally put my actual name on there like some kind of naive freak.
I checked out my options in Edit and it doesn't say anything about how to change your username.
Can anybody help me with this?

I'm not actually a mother yet.
I was pregnant in december and january but it was a ¨blighted ovum¨ which sounds like a corn disease if you ask me.
Anyway one of the first things i started thinking about was cloth diapers when i found out i was pregnant. I am a crafty lady and i have sewn my own cloth menstrual pads. So i thought that i could save money and recycle fabric by sewing my own. I was worried because i thought eight short nauseated months (i had really bad morning sickness when i was pregnant) wouldn't be too much time to get the project done.--read more >>