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i'm trying, really trying not to fuck myself in the ass

i struggle with this every winter. i have nothing to look forward to, nowhere to go that isn't cold and gray and more of a pain in the ass than it's worth... so i spend too much time indoors, not seeing people, working from home really blows sometimes. and the irony is, i get so much LESS work done this time of year, or whenever i feel like this, when it seems so obvious that the solution to my brain freeze/cabin fever is to stimulate myself more with work, among other things.

i pine for sweet baked treats. i look at pictures of pot pies, cupcakes, biscuits and spend every available brain cell on how i could make what's pictured, better. then i talk myself out of it because i gave up that crap and i feel so much better, really i do.... and i don't want to go back to that, really i don't....

i avoid all of my commitments by reading instead. sitting in my room, reading. sitting in the living room after everyone else is asleep, reading. till 2 or 3 am, reading dumb ass blockbuster bestseller bullshit because my brain can't handle real stimulation. just brain candy to avoid thinking about .... anything really.

i'm amazed that i haven't been fired from any of my gigs yet, i feel so lazy, i'm doing a fraction of what i should be doing, and i don't even set my own bars particularly high.

inside of two weeks, the only two independent book stores around, possibly in the whole state, shut down. one in particular was just .... oh it was just what everyone needs, a place to go see art, hear music, staged radio plays, readings, signings, armwrestling competitions.... it was always there, with perfect books on the shelves, used and new, all perfectly selected, a perfect mix of high art literature and pulp lowbrow fun shit, cool knicknacks and all... the owner is stoked to move on and doesn't seem to want to hear anyone crying about it. and the bar in town... the one that fought the redevelopment and won where others lost and were bought out by the conglomerate, a tiny, one story tudor pub surrounded on three sides by highrises, abruptly closed with a national act booked to play there, no explanation. the other pub closed about a month ago. now what's left is the college hangouts. and the ilk of this particular college doesn't lend much hope to anything good replacing either of them, ever.

january sucks. it really does.

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Funny or Die suspends comedian's account and deletes her videos, because one contained breastfeeding

they say the account and videos have been restored, so you can go to to see if they made good on that, and if you have an account, perhaps share your feelings on the move.

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state of the union drinking game

we can watch the SOTU address tonight live here:

though i have to admit, i haven't listened to enough obama to familiarize myself with his favorite buzzwords, so i can't really think of what to use as the phrase that pays. except "i want to make this clear," he does enjoy saying that. any suggestions?

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something for you to click on

if you haven't yet, please listen to the WTF podcast with todd glass. if you're not familiar with the WTF podcast, you would probably enjoy it, if you enjoy this site. anyway, comedian todd glass came out on one episode. i don't think that's a spoiler because the meat of the conversation is what follows. todd shares why he picked now, how he worked up the nerve, and what comments from other people felt like at different stages in his life.

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stop what you're doing, go see Hugo

and do it now, while you still have a chance to see it in 3D because it simply must be seen in 3D.

i don't believe in revealing too much about movies beforehand lest i ruin it for you, but trust me, you really really just have to see this one, if it's the only movie you see all year. best i've seen in years. everything you ever wished for from 3D, possibly everything you ever wished for in a movie period. i was in love from like 15 seconds in.

btw, it's totally family friendly so you can take the kid, but see it even if you don't.


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