Happy mother's day!
My kid is napping and I am typing.
I am so glad to have a kid. And be a mother and all that.
It's the best.

So I emailed her today. I haven't been answering the phone (haven't talked to her in two weeks) and she keeps calling and calling and emailing and it seemed unfair to say nothing at all. I am seeing a counselor about this stuff and she said it was fine to call or not call, email or not email. Somehow today I felt like I had to tell her something. I decided to email her because I can't talk to her on the phone - I wouldn't say what I needed to say and I would probably back pedal and end up feeling worse and like a lame fucking liar.--read more >>

yeah, another post about my mom.
We are going back to the state I am from (me, husband, kid) to see my aunt (she paid for the tickets). My husbands family lives about an hour away, he will go see them and I will too briefly. My mom lives an hour and a half away. We always go see her. I don't want to see her or tell her we will be in the area.
Yesterday I resumed counseling due to issues I am having with her and our past and the counselor (whom I adore) suggested we go back, see the people we want to see and not visit my mom. --read more >>

yeah, another post about my mom.
We are going back to the state I am from (me, husband, kid) to see my aunt (she paid for the tickets). My husbands family lives about an hour away, he will go see them and I will too briefly. My mom lives an hour and a half away. We always go see her. I don't want to see her or tell her we will be in the area.
Yesterday I resumed counseling due to issues I am having with her and our past and the counselor (whom I adore) suggested we go back, see the people we want to see and not visit my mom. --read more >>

I haven't posted in forever but I have been lurking.
I am at this point where I want to stop having a relationship with my mother.
I have always wanted to be one of those people who could maintain a relationship with their mother even though it wasn't working. But now I don't think I can and it's freaking me out. It's like the stand-by-your-man thing, only with a mother.--read more >>

I was in the city yesterday with family and everywhere I went I saw infants in their car seats. In cars, sure, but also everywhere else. I walked into a cafe (my 3 year old was in the car with my aunt and uncle) and the woman in line ahead of me had an infant in baby car seat at her feet. She pushed it along as the line moved, got her coffee and left all without looking at the baby (she was awake and very cute). The other women in the cafe all had infants in car seats at their feet or on a bench next to them.--read more >>

Hate to start the year this way but please vibe me for health - I am feeling funny - shaky and weakish, discombobulated and just strange but it's made worse by the fact that it makes me also feel panicky and agitated and I have no idea why and can't afford to go to the doctor unless I absolutely have to and I would really prefer to go only if I have some reasonable symptoms. Because my experience has been if I go when I feel bad but the symptoms are vague and not conclusive that I end up wasting time and money and still feel like crap.--read more >>

My little son turned three today. I am so excited and shocked that he is so old and very I'm emotional, of course. He is such a kid now.
We bought an old wood play kitchen and remodeled it for him a bit (paint, fixed it, my husband added real non working burners instead of painted on burners) and he is madly in love with it.
What an amazing thing this is to be a parent. --read more >>

to my darling sweet step-neice and her wife who want so badly to have a baby at a time when they just found out that neither of them can carry a child.

I keep reading all of this cool clothing stuff - the woman who wore the same dress every day for a year (brown dress project) who is now wearing, for another year, only clothes she designs herself made out of recycled clothing from her closet or thrift. And a former-HM (who may return) is doing a similar thing (I paraphrase so forgive me if it's wrongish) with redesigning her own stuff instead of buying more. And I like it.--read more >>

but staying on our cute little island. --read more >>

Ok so we did this fabulous craft swap and I never posted pictures because I am lame. But rhythmsmama sent me a fabulous little bag that she made out of pants (!!) and two amazing smelling salt scrubs that are just fantastic. Thank you so much rhythmsmama, you rock! --read more >>

I haven't posted in forever, but this is my update on the dog-who-knocks-over-my-toddler - he has a new home. A couple (teacher and stay at home mom) with three kids (9yr old girl, 7 year old twin boys) and two cats. They live about an hour away. They seem like good people, are familiar with the breed.--read more >>

Our nine year old german shepherd keeps intentionally body slamming into our two year old. Usually when he isn't getting a lot of attention. Intentional, but not malicious - it seems like he is just trying to show Bep who is boss or something. Unfortuately we can't get him to stop (happens once a week or so) and Bep is getting hurt. This time a skinned elbow and a big bump on the head. Last time bruises and a head bonk. So far no broken bones or teeth or doctor-visits, but it just can't go on.--read more >>

Well, we seem to have entered a new phase in the long road of toilet training. The underwear phase. So far so good, but we are only on day three.
Three days ago, after pooping in the toilet of a local restaurant and not wanting to put his semi-wet diaper back on I decided to just leave it off for a while. Then when we got home we tried some underpants and so far he is very motivated to keep them dry. At home I still usually keep him bare-bottomed, but yesterday and today we are spending the bulk of the day away from home at a summer fair in our town. --read more >>

If you (and your kid(s) and partner(s) - if you have one) could go anywhere on earth for three weeks where would you go and why?
I am curious and we are also planning a trip in the next year so I am fishing for ideas too!

So I got carried away in the high-energy boy thread and related this kid I know to the kid in that situation and it was unfair and wrong of me.--read more >>

I want to knit my son a hat - specifically a pretty basic merino wool hat, close fitting, no roll or brim, probably one that I can adapt to tie under his chin to keep on his head - and I don't want to pay for it. Where do I look for a free pattern? Most of the places I have found so far are either preemie hats, cancer hats or weird jester hats. My son is two. Please advise.

I was reading a magazine and the article was about these 40 something women gathering to talk about their lives and basically it ended with them not talking about their "dreams" as planned and something about how even mothers can have dreams and desires to some extent. Last week I read in our local paper an article about this woman being inspired (by some man, now dead) to pursue her dream even though she was a mother. --read more >>

my photgraphy opening went pretty well, the food was great. Thank you so much for the kind wishes and support. It was a busy night, I only sold one photo, but it's a start. I got a lot of great feedback and some repeat visitors. So it wasn't so painful afterall. My two year old son was with me the whole night (5-10pm) and was pretty much perfect, which really helped, though he was up way way past bedtime.

I have my first ever photography show tomorrow night and I am terrified. It's not a big show, nor in a fancy place, but the opening is tomorrow and I have to be there for the "gallery walk" event. My husband is actually there right now (almost 11 pm) hanging the show. I am home frantically cooking and baking while toddlerboy sleeps. I stopped by just before I put the kid to bed and he was only about half way done but it looked great. And I am not one to say shit like that, at least not about myself.--read more >>

my hair is frizzy and a bit longer than shoulder-length. The normal frizz stuff doesn't begin to solve the problem. My hair is frizzy, coarse and thick. Nothing weighs it down, so i don't have to worry about that.
I have tried silk protein serum, the johnfreida -frizz-ease stuff, infusium products, using more conditioner, less conditioner, straightening balm (makes some of the hair straighter without touching the frizz problem), curl enhancer (aveda), dove frizz product and probably more.--read more >>

Baby?
I have been thinking about you. Vibes x 1,000,000

to you mothers!

I have this crazy idea that I need some help with - food help. --read more >>