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December 5, 2007

Copyright © 2007 by Ralfee Finn

Jupiter/Pluto Conjunction, Part One:

1. had a jam session with my drummer and old guitar player (Kjetset, not Xod) last night. It just makes me depressed that we can't find another guitar player. But, on a good note, I realize that I have become so much better as a bassist and band leader than just a year ago when K. was in the band.
I feel like my band is dying, and there's nothing I can do about it.

Particularly about being engorged and the ahhhhhh of finally being able to nurse. But, it was my left breast in my dream, which was definitely the least popular one for my kids. It may have been because the DCE was resting his head there the other night.

She took the picture herself. I am merely the talentless hack who posts these things.

Does everything have to be a clash?

Really, I can't stand the new format. Maybe it's the colors, maybe it's how the blogs are on the side, maybe it's how slow everything goes now.
Am I supposed to put this on Lyn's blog? I dunno, it's more of a vent than anything else.

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thoughts?

Virtual chocolate kisses for everyone!

Anyone have PTSD resulting from sexual abuse?
Last night, I was with the DCE, being quite friendly, and I mentioned that I was on my period. He said he's not into doing with girls who are on the proverbial rag (my term, not his).

In a way, I can see that it's a preference, but, for me, it felt like a rejection of me as a woman (sorry, can't help that I bleed every month. It's cuz I'm a girl. I'm sorry for being a girl.)--and I went right to PTSD trigger-land. I have been rejected for being a girl, for having wants and needs, when the FAX only cared about the HOLE. Those of you who have been sexually abused, especially if it's been a twisted, manipulative, mind fuck kind of sexual abuse (is there any other kind?), may know that feeling of being rejected for who you are, while being expected to perform certain duties--KWIM--or face battery or rape or whatnot.