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Single Momma

So I guess the Mommma finally got Free! New adventures starting here. It's still new but the kids and I are making it. I think I am doing a preety goodjob. Hmmm. Maybe I should change my name to freemomma? Yup. It's a must do!

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Therapy?

Any of you mama's been to therapy? I am currently in individual therapy, hoping that I will get some help in going forward with my goals. I am feeling a little weird about it. I love my therapist, she's great. I feel that it is helping me, yet there is this little tiny part of me that feels like this is way to much of a bourgois (sp?) luxury. My mind keeps telling me to just get over it. Do any mama's struggle with this?

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Sponge Bob

I went and stood in line and cried and voted and bumped fist with the only other sister in line
I felt like a real revolutionary
Then I went home and waited for the revolution
I am still waiting for it
Meanwhile trying to figure out how many more things I can make with ground turkey
Paying the electric bill later than I should have
Feeling relieved yet trapped each time I drive up to this tiny house in the suburbs.
I am still saying no to morning sex before rushing off to long days at work
In neighborhoods that I worry may never see the revolution (or is it Revolution?).
I still feel guilty when I hide my IPod and lock my doors when stuck at a light near the bus stop.
I spend too much time at the gym and staring in the mirror at stretch marks
and not enough time writing.
So something about the sound of my children watching Sponge Bob Square Pants on this
Saturday morning, while I tried to gather myself out of bed under my mortgage paid roof
for another Saturday of laundry, treadmills, and rented movies,
made me realize that THE revolution has not happened in my head.
I thought about how on NPR I had heard that Sponge Bob was the H.N.I.C.’s favorite show,
And I thought about all his speeches on CNN, and how many times I’ve SAT on my couch mesmerized ,
before getting up to wash dishes.
I walked by my Daddy’s picture on the bookshelf when I finally stretched out of bed and remembered
that The Revolution Will Not Be Televised.

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Y'all are making my nerves bad...

The bottom line as I see it:

Why the hell is it that everytime a black woman states her mind she is labeled as ANGRY or AGRESSIVE?

I am so sick as a black woman, a woman of color, a biracial woman, a nappy headed woman, (whatever label I choose to accept for myself this week) to notice that when myself and other black women or women of color challenge anyone on their beliefs which I hardly ever do on HM but often do IRL,
is it SO offensive to people? (whether it is directly and succinctly worded as such or not) Please stop feeling so defensive just because someone tells you they are somewhat exasperated of the experience of being a black woman on Hipmama! Every day of my life I wake up and I am a black woman. I cannot look away from it. If I log off the computer race does not go away for me. No matter what I change my screen name to...I am still black. It is tiring and exhausting, and whether people are intentionally trying to wear me or any other black woman out with what are often very innocent comments, it is still tiring, and damnit, I have a right to say so every once in a while.

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Degree Online?

I was wondering if any of the mamas had pursued their degrees through on line/ distance learning?
I am seriously considering this and have done some research. However I would like some more personal accounts/information of any mamas who have had the experience. I have taken on line classes but I am a little concerned about the idea of getting my entire Master's online. I have narrowed it down to a few reputable public universities that are also in my state (helps with tuition cost and I can travel there if I need to see someone face to face). If any mamas have done this tell me more...
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